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Friday, April 6th, 2012

- stupid bints!

6:49 am

Who is this silly cow on itv's daybreak who said "we need to realise that as a society there are lots of breeds which no one should own unless they live in the mountains or something" this was after a news story about an "alsation" attacking a 5 year old.

I want to ask the question "when will we as a society realise that some people should just not be allowed to own pets"




Speaking of bints... Karen Matthews, the woman who abducted her daughter and then appealed for her return whilst gathering money to help get her back... Is being released soon. Apparently people are worried that she won't gain all her civil liberties because she will be forever persecuted for the past. Awwww shame!

You make your bed, you lie in it love!

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Wednesday, February 1st, 2012



10:36 am

I'm running a test to see who's reading my posts. So, if you read this, leave me a one-word comment about your day that starts with the third letter of your LJ USERNAME. Only one word please. Then repost so I can leave a word for you. Don't just post a word and not copy - that's not as much fun!

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Monday, August 29th, 2011

- Jannerism

6:06 am

You can take a plank of wood and snap it in half with your hands... You'll end up with 2 peices of wood with jagged and splintery ends. Not much aesthetic quality really. But you'd be able to push the two halves back together and they'd stick.

You could also take that peice of wood and saw it in half, sand the edge till it's smooth, stain it so the natural patterns of the wood form a gorgeous sight, then varnish it till it shines. However you aint gonna get those two bits of wood to stick together without driving a dirty great nail through it, which in it's self would change the aestetics.

It's the imperfections that make us fit... It's the imperfections that keep us together, it's the imperfections that attract us to one another, it's the imperfections that are beautiful!!

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Tuesday, August 23rd, 2011

- 20 days

3:44 pm

So I've been on these pills for almost 3 weeks, about the amount of time I was told it would take for any effects to start taking place. Thing is though I seemed to see an affect on me after 5 days. It could have just been the natural cycle of things that I'd hit a low and was on the way back up. However it doesn't seem like the normal order of things.

For the most part the pills seem to be doing what they should. I still get happy and sad, but it seems that the passion in these emotions has been clipped back. When I get sad it's kind of like a "oh well" rather than a continuing downward spiral that I was feeling. Similarly the floaty happy living on cloud 9 hasn't happened either. It's more like "oh that's cool" sort of thing. So I guess that's what I wanted, to be on a more even keel.

There has however been 2 side effects that I've experienced from very very early on.

Cut for way too much TMI about stuff you may well not want to readCollapse )

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Sunday, August 7th, 2011



8:00 pm

I'm really starting to piss myself off by feeling like shit. Right now I'm hurting so much and it's all for fuck all. I can't function like this, I'm not even sure you can call this functioning. I feel like doing a kevin wilson but that won't help anything. I'm on this stupid self destructive cycle. I know it's happening but it's not exactly easy to stop. I write shit like this and people understandably get ragged with me and they don't want to talk to me so i get more down and desperate and less people talk to me and before you know it I'm that fucking guy and everyone just thinks, eh leave him to it he's just after attention.

This is why I loath myself at the moment :/

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Thursday, July 28th, 2011

- It starts

8:19 pm

Fucking bunnies!

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Wednesday, June 22nd, 2011



6:23 pm

I know some of you knew child_of_god_16 beatles1964t better known as Taylor Breedlove. I've just seen from comments posted on her facebook she's passed away. I don't know how or exactly when, only that she'd come down with an illness a few days ago and by the 19th had passed. Anyone who knew her will know what a beautiful free spirit she was. Someone who touched people all around the world with her attitude to get on with life despite her spina biffida. The world has trully lost one of it's brightest flames. But she's out of suffering now.

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Edit... http://www.tulsaworld.com/ourlives/article.aspx?subjectid=426&articleid=20110621_Ob_obsl_8025604

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Tuesday, May 31st, 2011

- Genderless baby part 2

10:02 am

Yeah firstly i appologise for crap grammar as im writting this on my phone again so it'll be a tad pants.

Okay so this is a note written by the mother of Storm:

http://www.thestar.com/news/article/998960--genderless-baby-s-mother-responds-to-media-frenzy?sms_ss=twitter&at_xt=4de426bd2ee543db%2C0

If you read that, it makes sense what she says. I dont know if i was clear in what i wrote last time as it looked as though i was saying what they're doing is wrong. I dont think that, i think more that it's not particularly right either. i'm glad someone's done it, the media storm has highlighted an issue in the world today and for better or for worse, people are talking about it. Reading what is going on with storm's older brother however was what i noticed more. He's a boy who likes long hair bright colours and dresses. Now his parents are cool with that and are letting him explore these things. We don't know what jazz is like, is this the precursor of gender dysmorphia... Who knows.. Truth is that he most masculine aduts are just as likely to "girly" things as a child, and vice versa. However allowing him within reason to play with what he likes is exactly the right approach. He can know who he is and that its ok to do things which someone else feels is innapropriate when there's no real basis for that concept as is the case of the gender binary.

The idea that keeping jstorm's gender private so that peple will get to know them despite of gender still brings the problem that like it or not people react differently to men and women in the world. By taking that prompt away it will not change that fact it will simply remove remove storm fromthe normal social protocol that exists today. Presumably that is exactly what they want, butby denying that part of storm's life... They're taking away rather than adding to it. However in the scheme of things it's hardly likely to cause much anguish in later life, it just wont help anything as far as i can see.

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Sunday, May 29th, 2011

- The genderless child

8:07 pm

So the second I heard this story I knew there'd be controversy and drama in droves, from thief media and public opinion, with both sides being equally split between sources in and out of the trans/lgbt communities. I've seen exactly what I expected, some dail mail style headlines of pc going too far, some topical debate shows using the story for cheap laughs, some people hailing the parents as heroes, and many more. Hailing them as idiots. Well the world probably doesn't need any more comments on the story, but I'm gonna give one anyways.

The truth is its such a topical debate it almost begs for people to fall firmly on one side of the fence or the other... Yet I find myself seeing a very very mixed argument for it. Now in a perfect world having the child not forced into a gender roll so he or she could find their own personal identity with what they feel most comfortable with, would be a wonderful idea. Yet sadly this isn't a perfect world. This is a world with many preconceptions and society in this day and age revolves around those. I hate them as much as the next person and I challenge them when I feel it's worthwhile. Yet often the only way to get on in life is to dealnwith them. The gender binary is a concept which is ingrained in western society, flawed or not (oh lawd is it flawed) it is a system we have for identifying with those around us.

It's a very well known fact that the early stages of childhood many foundations are made. When very young children do not have their own gender identity, they play together regardless of who's. Boy or girl. Then later, usually about 4 or so years old, they start dividing into girls and boys. It's this point that most trans people start their confusing time in life. Their physical sex group would usually accept them, but they don't feel right their, so their chosen gender group (ie the one that doesn't fit their physicalsex) push them away as they see them as different In the case of storm the parents are no doubt trying to keep the child out of either gender stereotypes until that point where they will identify with the boys or girls. Like I say, I wish it was that simple. The thing is physical sex plays a huge
Part in your life, whether you're cis or trans. That child should understand the physical reality of their body. It would cause far more problems for that child to feel their gender is different to their assigned sex and not realise that their body is in fact not in line. Than for them to be assigned their gender by society and later find that society got it wrong.

Ideally it would be lovely if society kept it's nose out of deciding on what constitutes a gender role and people could be allowed to explore their bodies and it's limitations in spite of what others feel. However that's never gonna happen. The best we can hope for is that everyone understands that gender and sex often don't match and that it's not something to shun or hate.

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Tuesday, May 17th, 2011

- Serious question

2:39 am

Who believes in demons/evil spirits. Whether the Christian type version as part of Satan's army, or in a more pagan type way of negative forces of nature. Let me know if you believe in them and in what context. I am genuinely interested!

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- Black Dog

2:17 am

Dog as black as night
Everything you do
Pains me
Regresses me
Ebbs away my joy
Suppresses my ego
Stings the very core of life
In spite of all this
Oh how I
Need you

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Sunday, May 15th, 2011

- Don't say it Don't say it

2:38 pm

Fucking AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

People just people sort it out. Stop making me bash my head against a brick wall. Going in to work now where the wall bashing can continue as I come into contact with more (as Stacey would call them) *PEOPLE!*

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Thursday, May 5th, 2011

- Gonna go

1:39 pm

and vote for whether I want Audio Visual in the UK or not. On balance I'd say that tv's and stereos are good things and should be kept. AV clubs however are the denizens of geeks from a time before computers. They should be cleansed with fire!

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- So Submissive and Dominating

1:52 am

So for those of you not privy to the conversation on Twitter earlier, I basically indicated I find the ideas of subs and doms somewhat upsetting, it was asked by a few people why this is. So as promised to those people, and for anyone else who cares... this is why.

Cut due to be semi NSFW and also talk of sexual things you may not want to readCollapse )

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Wednesday, May 4th, 2011

- The AV vote is tomorrow

2:01 pm

and I have no idea which way I am gonna vote.

I see the arguments on both sides for and against. It's not exactly a small matter since it has the potential to throw wide the gates to more fringe parties to have a say. Thing is that's good only to a point, it could also become just as much a hindrance when minority issues become over-represented. I could see a lot of people using their second and third choice parties really badly too. Sort of an "I won't vote for the BNP first because they're racist, but I'd like the point made that we need to crack down on immigration so my 2nd place vote goes to make that point" then before you know it they're getting seats when the party with the most 1st place votes don't make it due to the "love em or hate em" syndrome.

It's a damned complex issue that leaves me on the fence :/

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Wednesday, April 20th, 2011

- Tonight is brought to you by the letter M for Moon

2:11 am

I love this song so much. I wish there was an online version on youtube I could link to... but apparently their isn't. The lyrics however speak for themselves.

They said the surface was suffocating,
They said the distance wasn't worth the waiting.
They said the pressure could crush the spirit of a man,
But none of them see the heavens from the place where I stand.

She is the brightest star that's in the sky,
She is the reason every astronaut would fly.
I see the lighting clouds of white on Cobalt fields of blue,
I close my eyes and sigh,
I can't believe it's true.

The moon is burning bright,
I saw her face tonight,
I touched the seamless beauty with my hands,
I'm never going back again.

They said I'm foolish,
fleeting hopes in borrowed dreams.
They said forget her,
The moon is far beyond your reach.
I would run out of fuel long before I'd ever land,
But none of them can see this world.
From the place where I stand.



Moon Burns Bright by Brave Saint Saturn.

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Thursday, March 31st, 2011

- Writer's Block: You're a shining star

1:47 am

If you could be a guest on any talk show, which would you choose and what would you talk about?


Kilroy and I'd talk about racism and xenophobia :)

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Monday, March 28th, 2011

- came accross this today

11:25 pm



They would use a shep in the pic wouldn't they :)

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Sunday, March 20th, 2011

- This week's post secrets

2:46 pm

Gay people farts have a distinct smell to them? WHAT!?!

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Sunday, March 13th, 2011

- Hard to believe the album is 16 years old.

12:33 pm

The song, primarily about Kurt Cobain really hits home with some of the lyrics. It lives up to it's name as a tear jerker.


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